I went camping 2 weeks ago with friends - without SO - at a music festival. It was a lot of fun - I needed it. Even if I did cry a couple of times because I knew when it was all over I'd be coming back to a place where I'm not wanted anymore. I learned that there are other men out there who find me attractive & they didn't hesitate to let me know. It was good for my ego if nothing else.
SO still hasn't actually said anything to the effect of "I want you to leave/I want us to split/I want us to live separate/etc.". Our lease is up the end of August. Unless pushed, I don't know that he ever will say it. I realized last night with it being July now (for all intents and purposes), I don't think I should wait around, but instead plan for the worst & try to prepare to move out the end of August. Right now it looks tough, because I don't make much. The places I can currently afford to live are in not so great areas. But I've got two months to find something, so I'm hopeful. Even tho I know summer is when all the fall students start coming in for fall and most all of the complexes have waiting lists.
My coworker got a new job. Her last day is this Friday. I'm truly happy for her. For all our past differences we've become friends. We're both trying to get out of this place. She told me this morning that she & her BF talked about it & if I can't find anything and need somewhere to stay they have room & a garage to store my things. I thought I'd cry. There was a time I'd extended the same to her & her daughter.
I had a colonoscopy last Thursday. Doc said everything was normal. Which left the question of "So where's the blood coming from then?" Possibly an ulcer he says. Get to do stool samples before rushing down endoscopy road though. I was relieved. I was waiting for the 'thumbs up' before starting my own job search. An ulcer can be managed. I don't feel an ulcer would be as serious as potential colon problems. So now I'm tweaking my resume to try & sell myself back into a field I haven't worked in for 8 years. No easy task, but not impossible. I figure I can't make less than what I'm making now. Anything would be a step up.