We found a counselor. He was recommended to us by some friends. His name's Dr. Loev. Pronounced just live "love". At first I thought, maybe it's a sign. Then I thought that's kinda silly, wonder how many patients he's got because of that? Now I've got KISS running thru my head. They call me...Doctor Love..I've got the cure you're thinkin of..Doctor Love... We can't get in til next Wednesday, but I feel a little better already. More secure, maybe? Knowing that help is on the way, ...

Having recently turned 30 and in the throws of playing "Hey, Where'd My 20s Go?", I now have relationship issues to add to it. This blog will hopefully be therapeutic in some way. Seems to help if i can write out my issues or whathaveyou. So why don't i just write in a journal then and be done with it? Yeah, well, why don't any of us? My SO (significant other, if you don't know) and I have been together 4yrs this August. The first two years were long distance. It came to a point wher...

I interviewed at a legal staffing place yesterday that offers direct placement. I did fairly well on their typing and computer test. So they've got an interview for me with a very large international firm this afternoon. I'm hopeful. Good thing I wore a skirt suit today, just in case (tempting as it was to pull out the comfortable khakis & a knit top). My coworker quit. She found another job closer to home, more money, and way better benefits. On her last day Owner asked her why sh...

I went camping 2 weeks ago with friends - without SO - at a music festival. It was a lot of fun - I needed it. Even if I did cry a couple of times because I knew when it was all over I'd be coming back to a place where I'm not wanted anymore. I learned that there are other men out there who find me attractive & they didn't hesitate to let me know. It was good for my ego if nothing else. SO still hasn't actually said anything to the effect of "I want you to leave/I want us to split/I w...

I have various songs and music wandering in and out of my head today. Maybe I should listen more closely & take them as 'a sign' from God/Creator/the Universe. I enjoy live music. I believe music can be, and for me, is, very healing. My main musical taste is rooted along the lines of jam bands. Think Grateful Dead. Phish. String Cheese Incident. New Monsoon. A host of others, but you get the drift. I came home today and he was here, working. Not at the bar drinking for 2 hours th...

We had such an argument last night. More like mostly him verbally venting such anger and hostility toward me. He bottles it all up then explodes. His self medicating doesn't help - he remembers differently and/or just doesn't remember things either he or I have said. He admitted to self medicating intentionally to tune me out. I don't know now if counseling is going ot help us stay together. I am not as hopeful as I was last week. Our first counseling session is tomorrow. He's expecti...

I started to title this Bright Sunshiney Day, but it didn't sound quite as catchy. It is a bright sunshiney day, though, and freakin hot, to boot. Brief update, SO & I are working things out. We're still going to live apart for a while, which I now think will be good for both of us. Sometimes you can't see the forest for the trees. As for hooker heels.... I think every woman should own at least one pair. If not hooker heels, then stripper shoes. Hooker heels are very high pointy hee...